The Life of Me

I've spent the day trying to come up with an idea for my very first blog entry. Should I do just some ordinary thing that I think about all the time, just to show what it'll be like on this site? Or should I do something CRAZY? Or should I do some deep, philisophical, spiritual thing? Then I thought, why does this matter so much? What's so important about first impressions? Why do we have to be so polite and sophisticated only when we first get to know people? I mean, the introduction is always when we goof up and make fools of ourselves, isn't it? Have you ever walked away from someone you just met not thinking, Oh, my gosh, they are judging me SO BAD right now! That was so stupid! Why did I say that? And why'd I shake his/her hand? My hands are dripping with sweat! Maybe I need therapy. (If you didn't get that--the wording was a little weird back there--I'm saying that everybody's always thinking that stuff when they walk away from someone they just met.) (Got it?) (Good.) (So, anyways...) Don't get me wrong--I'm a firm believer in being polite and chivalrous--We all love a man who holds the door and helps us up when we fall and protects us when we're being mugged in a dark alley, don't we ladies?--but I don't see why we only have to be like that when we first meet somebody. I mean, sure, if you're just an all-around nice person who isn't faking it, it's fine if you're always kind, but if you're like me--slightly full of myself, a bit insane, can't ever shut up, and likes a good laugh--then it's quite difficult and just irritating to be like that sometimes. (But--remember, I'm slightly full of myself; don't judge--I think I'm quite good at being polite when I want to be.)

So, I guess this whole entry is a bit confusing. I mean, I'm saying "What's the point," and then "They're still important," and "It's not fun," then "It's easy sometimes." 

But then, isn't everything a bit confusing?

-Sue Donimm