The Life of Me

REMEMBER!!! ATTENTION!!! MAJOR SPOILERS!!! IF YOU HAVEN'T READ OR SEEN TFIOS, DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, READ THIS ENTRY!!! I'M SERIOUS!!! GOODBYE!!!

I feel really awful about The Fault In Our Stars. No, no, no, TFIOS fans, don't hate me and stop reading!!! I'll explain why I felt awful right now!!! Because before I had read it at all, I figured it was some boring astronomy book thing. Then some of my friends started reading it. Then I heard (from someone who had happened to only read the little scene in the hotel room) that it was all... Well, reproduction-filled, if you get my drift. *wink wink* *nudge nudge* *etc.* But, finally, I saw it in a bookstore and decided to give it a whirl. So I sat down on the floor of the store and read for a little bit. Oh, it was the best decision I ever made! I only got to the end of chapter 1, but I was already hooked. I didn't buy it in the book store (it was cheaper on Nooks) (I have just about the lamest, oldest Nook ever... They made new ones so fast!!!) (But I still like the Nook.). We had stuff going on the rest of the day. I don't remember what stuff, but I remember being in agony all day, waiting to read the book. 

Finally, we got home, and I grabbed my Nook and bought it. I sat in bed and read and read and read for hours. I went to bed early-ish the next morning to get a couple hours of sleep before school the next day. I brought the Nook to school and read whenever I could. And then, I went home, did homework, and kept reading. I was sitting in my rocking chair, next to my mirror-closet doors when SPOILER!!! SPOILER!!! AND DON'T JUST READ THIS TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENS!!! IT'LL RUIN YOUR LIFE, I PROMISE!!! (I'm just putting this here so that you don't accidentally see what happens that I'm trying to warn you about after you read the warning... 1 second... Okay, I think we're good.) Gus told Hazel he had cancer again. I just put the Nook down and bawled my poor little eyes out for 5 minutes. Once I had regained control of myself, I kept reading. I was okay for a while, no more emotions... Then it happened. And by "it," I mean the worst death in the history of fictional deaths. Even worse than Leslie in Bridge to Terabithia (I cried so hard the first time I saw that. I still get teary-eyed!  Tee-hee.) Because this is the great and terrible 10. Okay, I have to stop that!!! Oh, man, did I cry then! I just sobbed uncontrollably for at least 15 minutes. And then freakin' Van Houten had to show up at his funeral, and then Hazel found the paper thing (I can't remember the book-version of what happened very well because I've seen the movie twice since I read the book... Once in theaters, once pitched on YouTube) (Link below) and it was just awful. But then, it wasn't... My sisters and I were discussing it--after we all read it--and my oldest sister used the perfect word for it: beautiful. That's what it is. I didn't think of that before, but The Fault In Our Stars is so beautiful. It just is... I mean, Gus is amazing, and Hazel is wonderful (and depressed) and Isaac is so funny when he has his little tantrum after stupid, idiotic, demented Monica breaks up with him, and Amsterdam... Oh, Amsterdam... The Orangee... I love what Gus says to her:

"I'm in love with you. And I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you." 

And here's the rather pitched TFIOS on YouTube (Sorry... There's like, other stuff in the background... It was kind of confusing for me... But it's TFIOS):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcgOsrFY5Ek

-Sue Donimm